mood booster :*

this is my bad day that i ever had :(

ujian reaktor susah -___- alhasil menggarang bebas deh

udah gitu sekarang malah galaws

salah sendiri sih gara2 kepo-in my ex di facebook

liat-liat fotonyaa

nyeseeeeeeel banget dulu dia minta baikan tapi aku ga mau gara2 masih sakit hati sama dia -.-

lah emang pas waktu itu sakit bgt mau gimanaa dong

but lucky me my friend always beside me when i having much problem and  need they advice n  calm me down

i miss u so much damn guys :*

 Don't keep crying cos of an mistake.learn from it n move on.don't waste ur life blaming yrself cos of something that's gone.-io

i love this qoutes so daaaaaammmnnn n it  makes me calm :)

ty  io your my best :*

ty mona,io,oin,kak felix,ce sheny,cindy,feli,tipong for being my moodbooster

i love u guys :*

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arsenal :(

tadi malem ada arsenal vs MU
udah heboh tuh di twitter ngomonginnya sama asta n mona soalnya kita tuh sama2 ngefans sama van persie (>̯-̮<)​♥
tp pertandingannya ga sesuai harapan kita ARSENAL DIBANTAI Щ(ºДºщ) mending dibantainya tuh 3-0 ini 8-2 parah banget kan?
poor arsenal :(


BUT
for me Arsenal is still a great club with a massive history. Gunners is just not lucky tonight. Great game anda thank you, Wenger's lads :)




Proud to have so many Gooners friends, they've never stop supporting their teams whatever it might happens. All thumbs up for you all. :)

guilt

Half past nine and I'm not sleepy.
I actually need serious sleep, which means I need 8 hours or more rest time.
But I just don't feel sleepy, yet.

I miss my baby boo ☹
So much.
Entah mengapa akhir-akhir ini aku merasa jahat banget.
I lately blamed and scolded him for some random reasons that shouldn't be fought over.
he kept him patiences and held him angers.
Aku terus2an badmood, marah2 ga jelas, & seriously aku ngerasa banget kalo aku moody.
Tapi dia sabar banget yaAllah..


I hate being too sensitive like this. Easily crying. I should be more strong than now ☹

makasih buat pengertian dan udah mau nemenin aku yang lagi galau :*

Mind washed,heart wounded

If you could imagine: 
A girl in an over-sized black tee,
laying under a superbig dark maroon blanket,
on the dark maroon queen-sized bed,
hugging a medium brown teddy
with swollen eyes and fast breaths,
and composing a new post for her blog,
that must be me.

I just don't know where should I begin to spill this shits out.
It's awkward when you wanted to write about something, but yer hands just couldn't type it.
Like you've already hurt by only thinking about it, and that made yer hands (including yer fingers) shaking and you couldn't help yrself.
If only you all could see me, instead of reading my blog, you could see my fingers.
It feels like my fingers don't even have a gut to write, feels like my fingers aren't strong enough. My fingers become so limp.

Last night, midnight to be exact, I had a fight.
With him.
So it was all about broken promises.
I was so mad because he seemed like underestimating every promise he has made to me.
I feel like....idk, it felt like burning here inside.
I told him for not making promises when he himself doesn't even sure he could keep his promises.
He was mad and he said I couldn't accept him and all his flaws, like I never satisfied of what he had done.
Now if you could think logically,
Does 'Breaking promises' could be categorized as one of people's flaw? No.
'Breaking promises' is a habit.
It can be changed. (««« YOU should read this.)

I was kinda speechless and totally irritated when I saw his reactions.
I mean, I was the one who should be mad, not him.
The one who broke most of his own promises was him and I was the victim.
But I was being scolded and blamed too.
He just didn't appreciate things I did which were actually for his own goods.
I try to help him to be a better person, to have better personality, to be a maturer person.
So that someday, he won't be left by his girlfriends because of his bad habits.

What's the point of caring about someone who doesn't even want to be cared about?
What's the point of trying to make the best out of someone who doesn't even appreciate what I've been trying to?

ELOOH GUUEH END

juni 2010

Kangen!

Siapa bilang ga kangen JAKARTA?

Dia mutusin aku.

Mutusin.

I've never been like this before.

I mean, aku ngga pernah diputusin secara sepihak sama cowo.

Terimakasih.

Gosh. Aku kaget dan ngga nyangka.

He told me he would wait me.

you said you'd never leave.look you've done to me.

Dan andai kalian tau alesannya apa.

"...Aku over kangen sama kamu. Aku ngga bisa sekangen ini sama kamu. Aku cinta mati sama kamu. Aku janji, putus kali iini aku ngga akan minta balik sama kamu. Aku janji." "Kamu yakin? Kamu bener ngga jadi nungguin aku sampe aku pulang dari Semarang? Kamu kenapa sih? Aku salah apa?" "Aku ngga kuat.. Aku ngga bisa LDR. Aku sayang sama kamu. BANGET. Tapi aku ngga bisa kalo gini , nah kenapa aku yang kena imbasnya?" "Aku ngga tau, maaf ya.."

...dan kontak bbmku di delete.

Aku berusaha terlihat baik-baik aja. Aku berusaha terlihat santai. Tapi sebenernya dalam hati aku ngga bisa.

Aku sakit. Selama ini aku terbiasa jalanin hariku sama dia, selama ini aku terbiasa dapet bbm dari dia.

Sekarang ngga ada lagi.

Aku scroll down blogku, lihat semua kenangan tentang dia, rasanya sakit.

Aku lihat notesku di bb, ada copy an chat2nya dia ato capture bbm nya dia.

Aku ngga kuat, it hurts.

Malemnya, dia bbm..

Dia bilang dia minta maaf, dia emosi.

Dia ngga akan cari cewe lain selain aku.

Karena sregnya cuma sama aku.

Aku paham.

Dia minta balikan, aku cuma minta waktu.

Aku memang masih sayang sama dia.

Sayangnya aku masih sakit hati