hello december

a few laugh, some tears, joy and a bit of pain but life goes on
goodbye november , hello december, welcome new year ♥

WELCOME NOVEMBER :)

WELL , SINCE OCTOBER IS END

LET US WELCOME NOVEMBER !

HOORAY !

In my opinion , in  October and September is where the most people having it's birthday

That's including , me , my mother n my ex bf -.-

Well , many isn't it ? 

Lol :D

me is going to have it at 28 October

While my mother  have it at1 november

my ex at17 -___-

why still i remember argh -.-
pleaseeeee make me forget that day

So , i got many wish for this coming november

Let me just list it !

 smarter !

 more dilligent !

taller , taller , and taller !

NEW PHONE !!

 nice birthday 

 good life

 no fighting

 no problem waiting

good relationship

healthy family

 make my parent's proud of me

 no red mark on my CA2 exam !

 always healthy 

 BLESS US !

what i wish going to come true <3

no goodbye

nothing

Well , it's Friday people ! 

And tomorrow gonna be a weekend , lol

Please enjoy your day o:)

Gonna be a nice weekend if you enjoy it with your fantastic activity

Well,if me,tomorrow I'm gonna be full doing
haven't decide yet , lol

Today , i got  my test paper from my previous exam not too hard

but hard

That's what i mean by " I'm not satisfied " :|

So , I'm gonna work harder on the next exam

WML , guys !

Hoping that I wil got many A's score , *amen!*

Since , i was hoping it , can i study like very serious , i can't really concentrate with my study

And I didn't even know why

Maybe it depend on my mood

I'll willingly please my mood then

If that can really be , I'll really beg it.

So , i didn't really got many thing to say

Cause I'm just too lazy to type long word 

GOODBYEE BLOGGY :*

mood booster :*

this is my bad day that i ever had :(

ujian reaktor susah -___- alhasil menggarang bebas deh

udah gitu sekarang malah galaws

salah sendiri sih gara2 kepo-in my ex di facebook

liat-liat fotonyaa

nyeseeeeeeel banget dulu dia minta baikan tapi aku ga mau gara2 masih sakit hati sama dia -.-

lah emang pas waktu itu sakit bgt mau gimanaa dong

but lucky me my friend always beside me when i having much problem and  need they advice n  calm me down

i miss u so much damn guys :*

 Don't keep crying cos of an mistake.learn from it n move on.don't waste ur life blaming yrself cos of something that's gone.-io

i love this qoutes so daaaaaammmnnn n it  makes me calm :)

ty  io your my best :*

ty mona,io,oin,kak felix,ce sheny,cindy,feli,tipong for being my moodbooster

i love u guys :*

happy birthday mamah :*

happy birthday to my mom!

thank you for being such and awesome mother and wonderful to us, 

from the day we were born you stayed home with all of us and took 

care of us.. love you always mom! :') with special love ♥

you are the reason why my life worthwhile

i love u so much mom xoxo ({})

germany

watched the first half of germany vs belgium early morning.
Germany looked all the same:efficient,discipline,consistent and unstoppable.
that's why i really really love germany

arsenal :(

tadi malem ada arsenal vs MU
udah heboh tuh di twitter ngomonginnya sama asta n mona soalnya kita tuh sama2 ngefans sama van persie (>̯-̮<)​♥
tp pertandingannya ga sesuai harapan kita ARSENAL DIBANTAI Щ(ºДºщ) mending dibantainya tuh 3-0 ini 8-2 parah banget kan?
poor arsenal :(


BUT
for me Arsenal is still a great club with a massive history. Gunners is just not lucky tonight. Great game anda thank you, Wenger's lads :)




Proud to have so many Gooners friends, they've never stop supporting their teams whatever it might happens. All thumbs up for you all. :)

guilt

Half past nine and I'm not sleepy.
I actually need serious sleep, which means I need 8 hours or more rest time.
But I just don't feel sleepy, yet.

I miss my baby boo ☹
So much.
Entah mengapa akhir-akhir ini aku merasa jahat banget.
I lately blamed and scolded him for some random reasons that shouldn't be fought over.
he kept him patiences and held him angers.
Aku terus2an badmood, marah2 ga jelas, & seriously aku ngerasa banget kalo aku moody.
Tapi dia sabar banget yaAllah..


I hate being too sensitive like this. Easily crying. I should be more strong than now ☹

makasih buat pengertian dan udah mau nemenin aku yang lagi galau :*

Mind washed,heart wounded

If you could imagine: 
A girl in an over-sized black tee,
laying under a superbig dark maroon blanket,
on the dark maroon queen-sized bed,
hugging a medium brown teddy
with swollen eyes and fast breaths,
and composing a new post for her blog,
that must be me.

I just don't know where should I begin to spill this shits out.
It's awkward when you wanted to write about something, but yer hands just couldn't type it.
Like you've already hurt by only thinking about it, and that made yer hands (including yer fingers) shaking and you couldn't help yrself.
If only you all could see me, instead of reading my blog, you could see my fingers.
It feels like my fingers don't even have a gut to write, feels like my fingers aren't strong enough. My fingers become so limp.

Last night, midnight to be exact, I had a fight.
With him.
So it was all about broken promises.
I was so mad because he seemed like underestimating every promise he has made to me.
I feel like....idk, it felt like burning here inside.
I told him for not making promises when he himself doesn't even sure he could keep his promises.
He was mad and he said I couldn't accept him and all his flaws, like I never satisfied of what he had done.
Now if you could think logically,
Does 'Breaking promises' could be categorized as one of people's flaw? No.
'Breaking promises' is a habit.
It can be changed. (««« YOU should read this.)

I was kinda speechless and totally irritated when I saw his reactions.
I mean, I was the one who should be mad, not him.
The one who broke most of his own promises was him and I was the victim.
But I was being scolded and blamed too.
He just didn't appreciate things I did which were actually for his own goods.
I try to help him to be a better person, to have better personality, to be a maturer person.
So that someday, he won't be left by his girlfriends because of his bad habits.

What's the point of caring about someone who doesn't even want to be cared about?
What's the point of trying to make the best out of someone who doesn't even appreciate what I've been trying to?